hey!

this is embarrassing, but i abandoned haxe. just felt like there wasn't a point in continuing to try and "learn" because i wasn't getting anywhere. i toyed around with cpp for a few days, and i think it's cool. it has its obstacles, and that's amazing; haxe allowed me to jump straight into gamedev without any prior knowledge, which was what made it tough, other than the lack of real tutorials and guides.

i think i'll start using ng a bit more. i dont really feel good showing myself in other platforms. i like being able to rant and write long posts. it gets ignored either way (which is good actually), but at least i can write more lolol.

no games or tests for a long time and it feels good. i feel more confident and chill and i'm not afraid of opening vscode anymore. programming is not a project anymore; it's just something i do in case i want to really do it. just occasionaly; apparently once a month.

in other news im trying to get creative. i'm trying to draw more and work more on ocs i like. not like i have a lot; but i've been trying to stop hyperfocusing on random characters and rather creating my own. feels good when i get to do it... and horrible when i don't. but welp. it's worth giving it a shot. i'll post some oc art just after this post :3 i also would love to make a commission ref sheet but i can't do that using other ppl's characters so i'll try my best to actually make my own.

other than that i'm feeling okayish. random summer days are awesome man. i hope we get 30°C more often. genuinely! i get to lie down on my living room floor. that's the good thing about living alone. nobody fucking bothers you whenever you want to lie down on your cold, beautiful living room floor.

so that's cool. peace!